This is such a weird feeling. Scott and I...I don't even know what we are to each other, we're in no rush to define it but it's something great. I can honestly say I've never felt something so intense before. I loved Kevin, I really did...but not like this. I don't know what this is. I don't know what to do with this.
I've never been that girl...you know, that sappy chick everybody hates because all she can do is talk about how in love she is. I don't ever want to be that girl, but if things keep going like this...I might be headed in that direction. I don't even really know how to describe it...it's like we're totally consumed by each other. Funny, I don't remember it being like this the first time around.
He wrote me the most amazing letter the other day. I actually heard a cheesy love song in my head while I was reading it...how corny is that? With anyone else I'm all about the personal bubble space, but with him...it's like I crave his touch. The slightest touch and there's a trail of fire following his fingers across my skin.
That Lauren Hill song said "the sweetest thing I've ever known, was like a kiss on the collar bone"...ha, she's obviously never had the opportunity to run her fingers through an adorably mussed mass of blonde hair, while feeling the softest lips in the world press even softer kisses to her hip bone.
The way he sighs tells me he feels the same way when my lips brush against his neck ever so slightly...when I'm drawn to that bend between his neck and shoulder that I love so much. The involuntary shudder I'm awarded with as my breath softly caresses that same spot tells me even more.
Always fire and ice.
Somthing in the back of my mind tells me that if this ever falls apart it's going to kill me...that I should back out now before I'm too far gone. But my heart says I'm a dead duck if it falls apart, sure...but fuck it, take a chance. Chance it is then.
4:48 p.m. - 2004-07-09
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