There's really only one sentence in this whole entry that will be important, and that sentence is: Right now, I can honestly say I'm happy. Maybe for the first time in my life, but definitely for the first time in at least six years.
A lot has happened since the last diary entry I made. Scott and I went to Italy and came back with a baby...and now we're married. I'm where I want to be. I have a beautiful daughter, an equally beautiful husband, the greatest friends in the world, and an ex-husband who can't touch me anymore. Things are good, and I plan to keep it that way.
People always make fun of Jennifer Lopez for all the marriages and everything, and they say it probably won't last with Marc Anthony. But you know what? I get it. Sometimes it takes going around the world and making mistakes to get where you need to be...to finally see what was right in front of you the whole time.
Kevin was just a bumb on the road to where I needed to be. I get that now...and now that I do, he has no more power. I don't love him, I can no longer be hurt by anything he does because I just don't care anymore.
I'm where I need to be now...with the man that I love...the man who loves me more than the air he breathes. The one who understands everything about me and knows what to do in every situation.
Not to say that life is perfect right now, it never is. At 15 weeks pregnant we still can't be sure that we'll actually have this baby, or that I'll live through the process even if we do...but we'll cross those bridges when and if we get there. Right now...no worries.
12:39 p.m. - 2004-10-31
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